If you can't control your wandering hands,
then maybe its what you need.
To feel, to touch.
But you don't, you can't,
care all that much.
Because if you did,
or even if you could,
then you would let them die,
the feelings,
the trust,
you'd leave it there to lie.
See the thoughts,
the wandering memories,
etched in my eyes,
because, I promise,
that's all you'll ever have,
Don't bother to worry or cry,
You don't want to mess up,
get upset,
or lose sleep.
Over someone,
or anything,
so innocent or sweet.
I really don't,
wanna wear my heart,
right on my sleeve,
but if you keep hurting,
and hating,
watch me leave.
Its the early morning,
the sun has not risen,
but your words in my mind,
they make it daylight in my world.
A song comes on the radio,
I close my eyes...
I stop breathing.
I can see it.
I can feel it.
The music.
Its loud enough to reverbrate in my chest,
to echoe in my mind.
I am alive...
happy...
confused.
What do you want?
Anything?
Everything?
Nothing...
Never.
Flickering Candle by UnrealisticDreamer, literature
Literature
Flickering Candle
I feel dizzy. When I think you, the world stops spinning and I am flying solo.
It makes me feel real. It that sense, that your the only one breathing.
The only other one with a beating heart.
Each breath I take,
is in your memory,
for your sake.
Then I wonder.
Is it worth it?
Am I getting anywhere with this?
These daydreams...
This thoughts...
Or are they hollow wishes?
A single flickering candle of hope,
in an empty ocean of despair.
Thats what keeps me going,
what keeps my head held high when I get pushed down.
Its scary.
Like a car going 90 without my seat belt on.
A rollercoaster that ends in open air.
But then I realiz
I am falling hard,
crashing down,
mourn for me love,
as I melt into the ground.
Its in the moment as we become one,
the grass is blue,
the sky is down,
and the lonely moon is the much loved sun.
It hurts so worth it,
just for you to care,
I'll burn into pieces,
and you can watch from your chair.
Darkness,
is only the lack of the ability to find light.
If you can look past it, is the dream
Of the unfathomable utopia that is yet,
The dream from better men.
The task that was incomplete,
Chaos is ensued.
Yet if perceived correctly,
Perhaps can be prevented.
The dream once impossible,
Suddenly probable.
Whisk me away to eternal darkness
Wrapped in cold bliss
Never more disturbed
Nothing left to live for
My last regret
I didn't kiss you goodbye
Forgive me
But I can't stay
This is my calling
Pulling at my very soul
Taking me away from you
My death wish
My want to die
My final farewell
Our last goodbye
Remember me love
Never Looking Back by UnrealisticDreamer, literature
Literature
Never Looking Back
Soft sunlight,
Caressing our faces,
We lay in the grass,
Together.
That's the way it was…
Where did that go?
Over come by shadows,
Grief,
And the loss of love.
Anything,
Yes anything,
Would I give to have it back,
Even for a minute,
that feeling,
The hope,
The love.
But you destroyed it,
Ripped it from my hands,
And from my heart.
And now as I lay dying,
I hope you know it's your fault,
Your fault that my blood is streaming from my chest,
And you don't care.
You watch,
Afraid to catch me as I fall,
Afraid to hold me as I die,
And afraid to tell me you love me.
So this is goodbye,
Cause I feel my heartbeat gettin
Escape to my Imagination by UnrealisticDreamer, literature
Literature
Escape to my Imagination
Surrounded by it all,
Unsure of what to do,
the lights and sounds,
spinning in and out of focus,
nothing is quite what is seems,
why can't something just be real?
Needing something reliable,
I face the darkness,
rather then to face,
the cruel reality,
of a loveless,
dreamless,
world.
Escape to my own imagination,
the darkness is my escape.
The rhythm in my head,
The beat in my heart,
The heart that keeps me living,
It's music.
My fingers twitch,
My voice dances through the room.
Can you hear it?
It twists hopes,
And portrays a lovers dream.
The music,
Not only alive,
But keeping me living.
It breathes within my lungs,
It sings through my voice,
And it lives through my mind.
Listen.
You will hear it.
It flooded over me,
Surrounding me,
Engulfing me.
Now I am drowning,
Suffocating,
Overwhelming,
Unstoppable,
Someone stop the rain,
The rain of happiness,
Cause I think,
I just might,
Be dying of it.
Beautiful Last Moment by UnrealisticDreamer, literature
Literature
Beautiful Last Moment
Him (9:11 AM): I will miss you too.
Him (9:12 AM): I hope it doesn't hurt too much..
Her (9:12 AM): As long as I think of you, it will be beautiful
Him (9:12 AM): Everyones last escape is always beautiful.
Him (9:12 AM): The last moment they die
Her (9:12 AM): Their last breath together
Him (9:12 AM): A stream line of live
Her (9:12 AM): a final blink of hate
Him(9:12 AM): then darkness
Her (9:12 AM): Eternal bliss
Him (9:13:09 AM): A final forgiveness…
Her (9:13 AM): or one last damnation…
Current Residence: My Personal Hell Favourite genre of music: Depends Favourite photographer: Bellz MP3 player of choice: Apple Nano (2nd Generation) 2GB Silver Ipod Favourite cartoon character: Axel (I dun't care if he is a game character) Personal Quote: Turn me heroe, turn me villian, just let me leave a mark on this earth
Favourite Visual Artist
Ernst
Favourite Movies
House of Flying Daggers
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Cute Is What We Aim For
Favourite Writers
Stephenie Meyers
Favourite Games
Kingdom Hearts II
Other Interests
Angst, sleeping, reading fanfic, writing, listening to music
describe the boy you'll marry:
he'll either be a brunette.
or a redhead
blonde would clash with my pale skin. =]
with either green or grey eyes.
but sky blue would be lovely as well
he'll be tall.
but just taller then me.
not too many freckles. i have enough for the both of us.
not too pale. our skin would clash.
we should blend together.
like dusk and dawn.
white and tan
with soft lips
a soft touch
but strong welcoming arms.
and he has to have a lovely laugh.
that gives me chills.
what will he love about you:
my smile
the way i stutter when i am confused
the way i wrinkle my nose when i'm happy
how i make faces when i
Someone stole my heart...
And I'd really like it back. It doesn't like to be handled roughly.
So if anyone sees it, let me know ASAP!
Make sure its all in one piece. If not, would you kindly bring out some duct tape?
It would be much appreciated.
I'm a FEMALE GAMER, so I MUST be ugly or crazy.
I'm EMO, so I MUST cut my wrists.
I'm NOT LIKE EVERYONE ELSE, so I MUST be a loser.
I SPEAK MY MIND, so I MUST be a bitch.
I'm OVERWEIGHT, so I MUST have a problem with self control.
I'm A DANCER, so I MUST be stupid, stuck up, and a whore.
I WEAR SKIRTS A LOT, so I MUST be a slut.
I'm a PUNK, so I MUST do drugs.
I'm YOUNG, so I MUST be naive.
I WEAR BLACK, so I MUST be a goth.
I'm WHITE GIRL, so I MUST be a nagging, steal-your-money kind of girlfriend.
I DYE MY HAIR CRAZY COLORS, so I MUST be looking for attention.
I'm INTO THEATRE & ART, so I MUST be a homosexual.
I'm a VEGETARIAN
Hey i know this is totally random, but you know your lil signature thing
'I am a poet writing of my pain.
I am a person living a life of shame.
I am your daughter hiding my depression.
I am your sister making a good impression.
I am your friend acting like I'm fine.
I am a wisher wishing this life weren't mine.'
Did you make it up? It's really good and i just wanted to say wow and well done
Also, if you ever need anyone here to help/ talk/ w.e!